I’m heading over to church for our weekly Wednesday night prayer meeting in about 20 minutes.
That’s what I do now: the next thing on the list.
I am currently working as a lunch aide for a local charter school. Previously (from September 2016 to April 2017) I was working 20 hours a week as an aide for a local state representative which became more than I could handle mentally and physically. Now I get about 10 to 12 hours a week helping the lunch server wherever help is needed. It’s just enough for me to manage mentally and physically and it also allows me to continue earning SSA credits in order to meet the credit qualification necessary to file for disability. Twenty credits down, with 3 more to earn in 2018…
I tried to manage my pain medication with the recommended incorporation of ibuprofen in August/ September and ended up aggravating my previously radiated innards. That was F.U.N.! (Please note the sarcasm.) The issue was resolved after about a week and a half of very bland food.
I have been dealing with new back pain and chronic headache/ lower head-neck pressure for the last couple of months. If I don’t manage it proactively, it has the potential to feel like someone stuck a screwdriver into my eye-socket and ear. I have completed a brain MRI that shows no metastatic lesions and the continued presence of mild Chiari malformation. Tomorrow I will enjoy the radioactive qualities of a bone scan. They say to let the technician know if you’re claustrophobic. Great. (Please note the sarcasm, again.) The brain MRI was tons of fun… (And again.) I need a cookie or two or twenty for being such a good girl. Oatmeal raisin, please! (No sarcasm here. Just cookies, please!)
I do the next thing. I get up. I walk my dogs. I start the girls on their school for the day. I go to work. I come home and get the ‘house stuff’ done. I rest for the rest of the day. I forget to return your phone calls. I forget to reply to text. I take medicine to force me into a comatose state in order not to feel the discomfort of my spine and head. And in all of this, I continue to learn the lessons of humility.
I spend many moments of each day humming bits and pieces of the hymns that my GREAT I AM brings to my heart. I am reminded moment by moment to give thanks for His loving-kindness (“The Lord’s lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.” – Lam. 3:22-23). I learn not to lean on my own understanding or the understanding of anyone else because He is the only one who knows me, inside and out.
Here are my latest ‘bits and pieces’ of hymns from His heart to my heart to your heart:
Day by Day
– Carolina Sandell Berg
“Day by day, and with each passing moment,
Strength I find to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.“
He Will Hold Me Fast
– Ada R. Habershon
“He will hold me fast,
He will hold me fast;
For my Savior loves me so,
He will hold me fast.“
It Is Well
– Horatio Spafford
“When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot Thou hast taught me to say,
‘It is well, it is well with my soul!’ “
Do the next thing that you can do no matter what others may say.
Do the next thing for Him because you can.
Do the next thing with all the bits and pieces that only He can give to your heart.
Do the next thing.